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Besides "going out" with one of my best guy friends in the 8th grade, and a two-year relationship with a great guy, I've been single all my life. For purposes of this post, I'll say this: after I experienced a good, committed relationship, I've been single for 16 months (to be exact), and it's been OKAY. I'm not the girl who has to be in a relationship, or even the girl who has to be
talking to a guy.
I knew true contentment.
But, being the creature God created me to be, a woman, of course I think about it: the relationship with the man God has chosen for me to spend my life with. I mean, what single girl doesn't think about that? In those months following my first 'serious' relationship's breakup, I was called to be content in single-hood, but I've learned through certain instances that I don't have to necessarily be content forever. God created me with a desire to love a man, the man He has designed me for. And that it is okay to desire that, but to remember that it should never take a higher place in my life than God and my faith holds.
Following me still?
So. I'm in a season of life where I'm back to praying about that man God has for me, probably everyday. Who he is, where he is, who his friends are, what he likes to do on Saturday mornings, how he loves Jesus. Then I pray for my own heart: patience and faith. God's timing is perfect, and I believe that with my whole heart, but sometimes a girl needs to be encouraged... and a little inspired.
Elisabeth Elliot has been single, married three times, and widowed twice. She says in her book Let Me Be a Woman, after spending more than forty-one years single, that she learned singleness is a gift.
"Not one I would choose. Not one many woman would choose. But we do not choose gifts, remember? We are given them by a divine Giver who knows the end from the beginning, and wants above all else to give us the gift of Himself. It is within the sphere of the circumstances He chooses for us--single, married, widowed--that we receive Him. It is there and nowhere else that He makes Himself known to us. It is there we are allowed to serve Him."
We do not choose gifts... we are given them by a divine Giver who knows the end from the beginning, and wants above all else to give us the gift of Himself. He is the end all, He is life and how we come to be fully alive on this Earth.
So this is what I say, what I'll cling to:
The life of faith is lived one day at a time, and it has to be lived--not always looked forward to as though the "real" living were around the next corner. It is today for which we are responsible. God still owns tomorrow.